thoughts.

the scope of things.

2010-11-27T13:57:00.005+08:00

i think i had forgotten an important word this year - PATIENCE

i feel like i have lost track on the scope of things. i have been trying to rush every single aspect of my life. perhaps when i graduated earlier this year, i was overly excited on what's to come. after all, when i was younger, i dreamt of this day - the day where i no longer have to study; and the day where i can finally live my life.

i'll get to decide my own future. i'll get to create my own future. i would finally be in control of my life! so i thought.

i wanted to skip steps. i wanted things to happen, and to happen quick. i felt like i had no time to wait for things to develop. everything just HAD to happen immediately. very Gen Y, some would say. but after all, Gen Y kids have been brought up this way. everything is instant. instant food, instant messaging, instant money, instant fame, instant technology etc... and i'm no different.

and now i look around me, and the situation in which i'm in, and it finally struck me...

i need to be PATIENT.

why was i rushing in the first place? i was completely ignoring the present, concentrating on what's to come. why am i rushing to finish my life? life is short enough and i should be enjoying it!

now, i can choose to think of this year as 1) a year wasted where everything went wrong, or 2) a year well-spent, for i finally know what i should be doing to live a more fulfilling life. i'll choose the latter.

i have to stop and pause for a moment, and see the bigger scope of things.

i hope you'll hear me out when you're ready. i'm truly sorry for all that i've caused. no doubt, i've been selfish. but things that have happened cannot be changed, all i know is that i'm ready to be a better person.

life, oh life.

2010-10-08T19:32:00.004+08:00

what is the meaning of life? this is certainly a question that has crossed our minds at least once. we ask ourselves, 'why are we here?', 'what's our purpose on earth?', 'why is there life?', and other questions along similar lines, all hoping that we will ultimately land with the magical answer to......

the meaning of life.

no doubt i too find myself pondering on this rather excessively at times. wishing that someone can just lay out a road map of my life, so that i do not have to worry about whether i'm living my life to the fullest. when will i be successful? when will i get married? when will i have kids? and of course, the most dreadful of all, when will i inhale my last breath?

but why am i worried about finding the all so magical answer. what difference would it make if i found out 'the meaning of life'? will it make me happier? perhaps it can provide some solace and give peace to the mind that everything will be all right in the end. well, maybe.

but nobody's going to give me an answer. what's the joy in it anyway? i need to find my own meaning of life. just as there are no two same person, there are no two same lives. i should do what makes me happy; what gives me satisfaction, and more importantly, what makes me feel that i'm truly living my life.

we should all live our lives as we wish*, for after all, it is OUR life.

*some may disagree with this, for sometimes living life as you wish can hurt others around you. it must be understood that a basic constituent of human life is social interaction, so that definitely has to be weighed in when making life decisions. with that said, we should not hold ourselves back too. i know it sounds like a MAJOR contradiction, but look at life and you will know that contradictions is what it is essentially made up of :)

the seed of love.

2009-11-14T00:19:00.013+08:00

it has almost been a year since i wrote an entry on this blog. it's amazing how time passes by. i've learnt a lot this year, but just never found time to jot my thoughts down. this blog is special to me for it contains my most earnest and innermost thoughts. it has also provided me with a space to reflect upon life. that is why i'm always hesitant in writing an entry. i only want to write when i can best stitch the multitude of thoughts that stream through my mind every single day in a somewhat coherent manner. haha. and i think i'm ready for an entry this year, though it is coming to an end.

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as much as we like to fool ourselves, a main constituent of life is love. love binds us. it transcends hatred. it is able to bring together people from all walks of life. but yet this simple word is hard to define. ask someone what a camera is, and they will tell you it is a device to capture photos (well, most. unless you meet someone who prefers going into detail on how it captures light that is reflected against the object being photographed). however, if you ask someone what love is, you'll get a range of different answers. you might even encounter people who are stumped or clueless about what love is. meet someone who is more cynical and they'll tell you that love does not exist.

so what is love? what is this complex feeling that is hard to describe, but yet yearned by many? is it even a feeling in the first place? could it perhaps manifest itself in words, actions, so on and so forth? we have heard so many times of people saying that they haven't met their true love (many of us may be guilty of this). but how can you know you haven't met your true love if you haven't met him or her? how can you be so sure of something if you haven't experienced it before?

honestly, i find it hard to address these questions myself. i'm not searching for an answer for i know it will be a futile attempt on my part. life presents to us many mysteries and love is one of them. we have conjured so many stories from folklore and ancient myths to assure us that each and everyone of us has a soulmate. someone who is a part of us; someone who completes us. and this gives us reason to continue on our search to seek out our other half (should we have not found him or her). but what if we are so fixated on this concept of love - that they can only be a certain person who is right for us - till we lose our sense of being? till we fail to take notice of the people around us; till we forget to love?

maybe love is like a seed. it has to be planted. time has to be given to nurture it, take care of it, and only then can it blossom. like all plants, it also requires constant attention. if you don't water a plant enough, the leaves will start wilting, and the plant may eventually die. just as love grows, love fades too.

perhaps then true love need not necessarily come in a complete package. and maybe the concept of meeting that perfect one is causing us to lose out on many other potential 'perfect ones'.

so why not try sowing a seed of love today? you'll never know what it may blossom into.

what a disappointment.

2008-12-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

disappointments occur when you place hope in something, only to have your hopes crumble to pieces. unlike happiness or sadness, two very distinct emotions, the feeling of disappointment tends to linger in an ambiguous zone. you're neither sad, nor happy. it is hard to place this feeling, but i guess it hurts, for you must have believed in it to be greatly disappointed. well, at the end of it all, the feeling of disappointment would probably fade away. however, for those who disappointed, it might not. but let it be a lesson; reflect and ponder. if you gave it your best shot, then there are no regrets. but if you know things went awry because of something that you could have prevented, use this as an opportunity to better yourself. honesty is not always the best policy, but you know that lies when uncovered will inevitably hurt. be responsible to the ones around you.

i'm just so disappointed in you. the fact that i trusted you, stood up for you, makes this harder to bear. but it's alright. you can lie to anyone but you cannot lie to yourself. have a conscience please. treat the next one with better care and more respect. i wish you well.

seek less, live more.

2008-06-26T18:08:00.019+08:00

the concept of the body and mind as separate entities is one that all religions are based upon. it offers a consoling fact for us humans that although our bodies may die, our soul is eternal. however, not all of us are theists and many actually challenge this idea. science is one avenue that has constantly tried to prove that we humans, like all other creatures on earth, have a finite amount of time in this world, universe etc. (the reason why i'm not stating any one particular place is that people might argue that after death, we may still continue to live in another dimension). charles darwin's theory of evolution is one that modern science is based upon - humans are merely a product of evolution; we evolved and developed just like any other living organism.

of course, this resulted in an array of criticisms, flagging science as being dehumanizing. that science sucks out the meaning of life, leaving us cold. it forsakes the feelings and emotions that we humans experience. but if deeper thought is given to this, we see that how at some point, we must make a distinction if we were to accept the cartesian (mind and body as separate) theory of life. it is not only humans who are able to feel, pet lovers will definitely attest to this, as to them, their dog, cat, bird or hamster, have feelings too. so if we include our fluffy friends, must we include the likes of mosquitoes, cockroaches and ants?

then comes the argument that well, only organisms with a complex brain has an eternal soul. but would this links us back to the fact that we are attached to our body, and like our body, we'll cease with time?

so which theory should we believe in? that we are animals or that we have eternal souls?

it is indeed very tempting to choose the latter and refute the former. it is a very comforting thought. but must we choose? in my opinion, i feel that the reason humans are plagued by this very question is due to our ability to construct meaning. humans created words, which is then associated with certain emotions, feelings or objects to give it meaning. these words are then freely strung together by people such as writers and philosophers into stories, theories and ideologies, that try to convince and enlighten other people. so why do i place an emphasis on language? i believe, the extent of one's linguistic ability is correlated to the extent of a person's persuasion power. and this is what is needed in areas such as philosophy, where words are used as tools of arguments. the theory in which various people would choose to believe in depends on how deeply they are convinced by it. and if you think about it, if our currently complex system of language (whatever that language may be) did not exist, would we be able to conceive such mind-boggling thoughts about life? will we just be like any other animal on earth, who feel, love and live, but whom never question their very own existence?

the argument can go on and will probably thread along the lines of infinite regression. but our minds are inquisitive. we constantly seek answers. but sometimes i feel that seeking answers not necessarily alleviates our frustrations. live life as it is. make the most out of it. love, give and learn. even though i'm currently an agnostic (one who does not deny that God exists, but believes that it is hard to find out for sure), i do not put down religions, but in fact encourage people to take up one, for it'll certainly make life easier to live (this can take a whole new discussion). although i must say, i would not encourage radical religions.

so for those like me, who are still seeking answers, "seek not and you'll find", some may say.

but for me, it will be, "seek less, and live more".

a starry night.

2008-04-11T16:34:00.004+08:00

just a few nights ago, i looked up into the sky. i saw a sky filled with stars just twinkling and shimmering. i stared at the stars, and the stars gazed back. they reminded me that beyond those dark blue skies lies a universe so big, no human can measure its vastness. what is out there? how did we end up here? could there be another solar system like ours somewhere out there?

well, as sad as it may seem, i might never ever get to know these answers.

thnks fr th mmrs.

2008-03-12T22:04:00.008+08:00

how do we know that we are the same person we were yesterday or one year ago? well, in order for us to know that, we first have to remember. and remembering is crucial for something called memory.

memories. we always look back on our memories. thinking how things were perfect then. wondering what went wrong. reminiscing those fun and joyous moments and dwelling on those "matters-of-the-heart". all these things form our life story. happy or sad, it makes us who we are today and allow us to be sure that we were the same person, a day ago, a month ago or even years ago. we might change. become more vicious, more compassionate or even more religious. our views and outlook of life might change. but whatever it is, no matter how we change, we still perceive ourselves to have the same identity since the day we entered this world.

we might lose pieces of our memories. we might even remember them wrongly for our brain just cannot handle all the small little details that happen in our lives. but we know for sure that what we remember is what that is or was most important to us. for if it doesn't hurt or make an impact, we simply forget it.

okay. i think i am getting a bit lost in my own words. but what i really want to say is that i'm thankful for my memories, for it is what i'm made up of.

the thought of death.

2008-02-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

usually, i think about it before i go to sleep. sometimes it just strikes me when i'm going through my day. whenever it happens, it sends bolts of chills throughout my body, leaving me numb and helpless.

the thought of death is not something that is easy to cope with. it is the thought of yourself being non-existent. the thought of knowing that you'll cease to exist one day. it includes many other negative, pessimistic and 'non-happy' thoughts. it makes you wonder why there's life in the first place. cause if there isn't life, there wouldn't be death.

but then again, if there isn't life, there wouldn't be you or me. you or me wouldn't exist. you or me wouldn't be able to feel a multitude of emotions. i would not be sitting in front of my computer typing this post and sharing my view on the "thought of death".

i guess even though the idea of death is one that is hard to comprehend and grasp, no one can escape this natural cycle. it will definitely linger throughout our daily lives, but let it not take over our lives. for if it does, we'll fail to appreciate it.

i'm scared. yes i am. but i'll try my best to turn this fear into courage. cause if we're too scared to die, we'll be too scared to live. and i definitely don't want to waste the time i have in this world living in fear. i can't afford to. i want to spend the precious time i have here, loving my friends and family. let us all live bravely, for life itself is truly a gift.

the bus ride.

2007-11-19T22:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder what's life about. the other day i took a bus back home after work. something i haven't done in a while. the bus was rather empty so all i could do was look out the window. it was about 745pm and the sky was on the brink of total darkness. the street lights were not turned on yet and the absence of natural light caused the houses and buildings to be silhouetted against the setting sun. i thought to myself "how pretty the sky looks". but at the same time, thoughts of not being able to see the sky one day filled my head. i know that one day i'll cease to exist. i looked out the window again and i saw people walking down the streets. i told myself that one day, they too will cease to exist. suddenly, i was instilled with fear. i wondered why life must end. and why in the first place is there life? well, this question just doesn't seem to have an answer. no matter how hard i tried to think, i ended up with no answer. soon i gave up. but the thinking was not put to waste. it made me realize something. that i should try to slow down sometimes just to look at what's around me. for one day, without doubt, i would no longer be able to. not long after, i reached my stop. the bus ride, for the very first time was actually rather fulfilling.

at times i wished that we can all live happily without stress. cause we are only given one chance to live. we're meant to make the best out of it. but most of us actually make it rather unpleasant. but then again, i think we're left with no choice. society is built up in a way that chasing the dollar seems more fulfilling than enjoying the little special moments in life and nature's wonders. oh wells, hopefully i'll remember this when i start working in the years to come. maybe more bus rides would help.

the importance of words.

2007-10-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

i do not know why, but there's suddenly a compelling urge within me to share something i learnt during philosophy class. it may be something you have heard before but i just feel that it is so important. it is regarding the conveying of thoughts to another person, be it verbally, or written.

the reason why it is crucial for us to tell a person how we feel and not think he or she might know how to interpret our "subtle hints" or actions is simple. in the cases of many (except for the few percentage who are so-called "mind readers"), we only have access to our own minds. this makes it hard for us to know what the other person is thinking, and to a certain extent, substantiate whether there are actually other minds like ours out there.

therefore, most of the times when we do not say things out, people around us might interpret our actions according to their own minds. for example, a shy person might get misinterpreted as anti-social or in a more "lovey-dovey" example, your partner might think you don't love him or her just because you didn't say it.

i'm not saying that we should all go out now and expose our innermost thoughts. there are some thoughts that should be kept private, with restricted access. however, what i am trying to say is that, don't rely on "i think he/she should know what i am thinking" sort of attitude. yes, body language can tell a lot, but words convey it more clearly (especially with the absence of proximity). however, don't go spoiling the trust by saying things you don't mean. in ending, i would just like to say, communication is key to every interpersonal relationship.

ps. no wonder sweet-talkers always get their way...

life is fragile.

2007-07-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

i somehow have a fascination with how life was created. i like to think about this when i am rather bored as trying to find out the answer can keep me occupied for hours. well, no one can ever be certain about how everything came about, although for many years, scientists have been trying to explain it, well....scientifically. i however feel, that there must be a greater divine out there making all these happen. but then again, who would know?

anyways, as much as i am fascinated by life, i am aware of how fragile it is. how easy it is for us or our closed ones to lose it. it does instill a certain kind of fear at times. sometimes, i wished time could just stop at some point. but i guess that's not possible. we have a cycle to follow.

so just a note to everyone out there. life is fragile, cherish it. and if there's something you like to say to a loved one, friend or maybe someone you like...say it when you can, not when it's too late.

the bigger picture.

2007-07-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

although it may ache, although it may hurt, but believing that this is just the beginning of something bigger helps erase all doubts.

always think of the bigger picture.

who am i?

2007-04-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

have you ever asked yourself the question "who am i?", "where did i come from?".

well, the answers we each have for these questions will certainly differ. some people define themselves by their names, some by their achievements. as for the second question, some might say "mummy's tummy", while some might believe in reincarnation. whatever it is, if up to this point you have not asked yourself these questions, its time to start pondering. the list of answers can certainly go on and on.

when i asked myself these questions, i was kept rather perplexed. as simple a question it may seem, i realized i was stumped for the most accurate answer as it kept leading on to other questions. i started asking myself, "how did the world come about?", "who created the universe?", "is there an after-life?". i could easily get answers from the different religious practices around the world or lean on age-old philosophical ideas. but the thing is....we will never know....

as much as i dread the day i find out the answer to my question on whether there is an after-life, i know it is inevitable. its only natural for all living things. it is depressing. i can either dwell on it or try to cherish everything around me more. i'm choosing the latter.

"we too are stardust..." - Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder

nothing lasts forever.

2007-03-21T03:43:00.000+08:00

--- a post i forgot to publish ---

nothing lasts forever. flowers wilt and people die. memories fade and attitudes change. as much as we want things to last, sometimes, it is best to move on.

as a new chapter of my life awaits to be written, i slowly reminisce the current. what have i done well? what have i done wrong? the list of questions i can pose to myself is endless.

well, whether sweet or bitter, these memories are mine to keep (till my memory fails me) and forms my life story.

understand, not.

2007-02-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

you say i'll never understand your situation. you'll never understand mine either.

it's not that easy.

answers.

2006-12-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

i wish i knew the answer to everything. only then, would i be able to solve every single problem in the world.

if only.

a beautiful sunset.

2006-10-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

if i lay here.
if i just lay here.
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

keep it going.

2006-09-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

at times, i keep wondering what lies ahead of me. where would i be a year from now? what would i be doing 5 years from now? the list of thoughts just keeps going on. i guess most people are afraid of the future in some way or another. it is the unknown and uncertainty of things that causes fear. i believe that even people whose lives seem to be all planned out for them, have a tinge of fear in within.

but sometimes, no matter how hard you think, you'll never know what will happen in the future. it just causes frustration. it just causes you to feel vexed. it urges you to stop putting your energy on thinking about the future and concentrate about the present.

i guess i overthink too much at times. i fear of the time i might lose my memory. i fear of the time i will not see or hear from the people dear to me. in short, i fear the future.

all these may sound pessimistic, but at least, it is a constant reminder for me to cherish what i have now and to live each day to the fullest (tho i tend to sleep my days away), and this keeps me going.

i miss you so.

2006-09-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

[the cranberries - linger]

if you, if you could return
don't let it burn, don't let it fade
i'm sure i'm not being rude
but it's just your attitude
it's tearing me apart
it's ruining everything

i swore, i swore i would be true
and honey so did you
so why were you holding her hand
is that the way we stand
were you lying all the time
was it just a game to you

but i'm missing you
you know i'm such a fool for you
you've got me wrapped around your finger, ah
do you have to let it linger
do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

oh, i thought the world of you
i thought nothing could go wrong
but i was wrong, i was wrong
if you, if you could get by
trying not to lie
things wouldn't be so confused
and i wouldn't feel so used
but you always really knew
i just wanna be with you

but i'm missing you
you know I'm such a fool for you
you've got me wrapped around your finger, ah
do you have to let it linger
do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger

the small little things.

2006-08-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

sometimes we get too absorbed with our daily lives, we tend to forget to just slow down and appreciate the finer details of our lives. we are so fixated on the "big picture" that we fail to notice what this "big picture" is actually composed of.

so let's all take a deep breath and think about the small little things in life that can brighten up even a gloomy day.

i will share the small little things that make me happy. may sound weird or funny, but at least...it makes me happy!

[the small things in my life.]

- having a nice slow drive on a sunday morning (tho i rarely wake up on time)
- drinking a cup of ultimate mocha from coffee bean
- drinking a cup of green tea blended cream from starbucks
- seeing stevie wag his tail furiously
- singing in the shower
- listening to my ipod on the long tiring train ride to work and back
- having a pole to hold on the train or something to lean on (standing in heels on the train is torturous!)
- taking the new train (those black ones just make me happy)
- going for trainings (ironically, not to train but meet up with friends)
- playing the organ
- seeing a very blue sky in the morning
- smelling flowers
- shopping, shopping and more shopping
- having a nice long chat on the phone

sheesh. now that i've started listing the things that make me happy, i realize that the list can go on and on. so why am i still unhappy?

your turn. tell me what's yours?

i want to buy you flowers.

2006-08-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

[emilie simon - flowers]

i want to buy you flowers
it's such a shame you're a boy
but when you are not a girl
nobody buys you flowers

i want to buy you flowers
and now i'm standing in the shop
i must confess i wonder
if you will like my flowers

you are so sweet and i'm so alone
oh darling please
tell me you're the one
i'll buy you flowers
i'll buy you flowers
like no other girl did before

you were so sweet and i was in love
oh darling don't tell me
you found another girl
forget the flowers
because the flowers
never last for ever
never last for ever
never last for ever
my love

looking back.

2006-07-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

yet again, a year has passed. it just all seems to be passing real fast. looking back, it's time to reflect. it has almost been two decades. are there things that i have done which i'm proud of? are there mistakes to learn from?

the past nineteen years was definitely not always smooth-sailing, but i'm glad that everything that has happened, happened. i always believed that everything happens for a reason. although i might not have digested the rough patches well last time, thinking back, i know it definitely made me stronger.

for everyone who wished me, thanks for remembering. your wishes meant a lot to me.

[personal thank yous.]

dad, mum, shelley thanks for everything for the past 19 years! i might not have been the perfect daughter/sister(for shelley), but remember that i have always appreciated all of you. looking forward to sydney in october together.

martin thanks for accompanying me on this special day of mine. really appreciated it. it certainly meant a lot to me. you have been really sweet and nice. i found the 99 short messages really touching! =)

juan thanks for wishing me on every possible medium! you have really been a great friend and i am glad to have you in my life for the past 6 years. our stories shared can probably be compiled into a book. lol. thanks for always being there =)

cerian, nat, rayner, russell, mervyn, raymond, xiaowei thanks for the wishes! remember our date on saturday! ;)

wonderful colleagues thanks for the lovely flowers and gifts. they were really sweet! you all certainly put a smile on my face! =)

steadysteady thanks for the birthday call, though i know i was last on the priority list =)

for everyone else thanks for remembering! =)

weekends, not.

2006-06-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

i always looked forward terribly for the weekends ever since i started my internship programme. but i found it a torture as my mind will be so fixated on it from monday to friday that i get depressed and extremely moody.

however, at last! voila! i found the perfect solution.

and that is to not look forward to it at all. besides, it passes all too quickly.

i'm a happier person now =)

greater expectations = greater disappointments?

2006-06-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

you know how you always hear people say that you can only achieve the best out of yourself if you expect more? so i am one who sort of live by this rule. i agree that for someone to reach greater heights, you need to expect more out of yourself.

having this "rule of living" deeply embedded in my subconscious mind, i sometimes realize that i tend to expect a lot out of other people as well. this however does not necessarily produce the same kind of result. in fact, it brings about catastrophic results that can cause friendships to cease, relationships to weaken.

guess i'll slowly learn. for now, pardon me.

i am funny.

2006-06-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

for those who never agreed. here's some proof:

click on picture to enlarge.

my name.

2006-06-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

Sarah Goh --

[noun]:

A person who laughs at anything (even this entry)

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

obligations.

2006-04-08T03:34:00.000+08:00

we have many obligations in life. for example, eating some badly cooked food but having to say it tastes nice because it was cooked by your mum. or, respecting someone not because you truly respect the person but because you have to. or, going somewhere you don't like but have to cause you're obliged to go. guess it is quite obvious that obligations are always portrayed negatively.

well, i really hope i'm not your obligation.

the bursting balloon.

2005-12-21T23:19:00.001+08:00

for the sake of keeping a good reputation, i'm sure many of us have learnt to hold back our anger, thoughts and comments to prevent an unsightly situation from happening. but there are times when this inhibition of ours can actually result in negative repercussions.

just imagine that our withheld anger is air, and our mind, a balloon (ok, this is a bit stupid, but just imagine). if a balloon was to be continuously filled with air, it will reach a certain point where it would just BURST! that's unless air is being let out constantly at the same time.

therefore, it is best to let out your anger once in a while. it will definitely do you some good.

it's soon gonna be my turn to deflate my balloon.

maybe tomorrow. maybe not.

2005-07-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to write now. but i do have things i want to write about. maybe it's cause i have too much things that i want to write about. or maybe it's cause i can't seem to find the right words to portray my exact thoughts now. whichever the cause, this happens to me all the time. in different contexts as well. sheesh. this is something i really dislike about myself. well, maybe tomorrow.

maybe not.

what we are. what i am.

2005-04-14T02:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think we get so self-involved that we tend to forget about the things, the people around us. we only see things from one perspective. ours. we deprive ourselves from feeling, feeling for others. someway or another, we become numb to our surroundings. we seem to live in a cold lonely empty world where everything seems so superficial. relationships are formed on a basis of attaining individual gains. we lack empathy. we lack the skill of interpersonal communication. we feel alone.

the above may not pertain to everyone, but it sure does to me.

keep dreams as dreams, thoughts as thoughts.

2005-03-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

it's not uncommon for someone to tell you to pursue your dreams, live it or you will regret etc. however, don't you think sometimes it's better for some of your dreams and thoughts to remain as it is? (especially those seemingly impossible ones) well, i don't want to come across as being a pessimist, but the thing is, if your dreams and thoughts don't live up to how you thought it out to be, it can be very disappointing as well as demoralizing. well, truth hurts. reality hurts. so why bother to cope with all this pain and dismay? keep dreams as dreams, thoughts as thoughts.

life = ours, life = decisions, decisions = ours ?

2005-03-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

decisions. they are definitely part of our everyday lives and pretty much constitute it. we have to make simple decisions like what we are going to eat, what to wear, and tougher decisions like which university to go or whether to marry that special someone. obviously, sometimes we are not given the power of deciding for ourselves. we have to obey our parents, maybe we are obligated to someone and thus have to abide by their decision. so if life is all about decisions, and life is ours, why can't we make our own decisions at times?

conflicts are inevitable.

2005-02-04T02:14:00.000+08:00

people are different by nature. none of us are exactly the same. therefore, when there are differences, there are sure to be conflicts. despite this, not all conflicts are bad. imagine how it would be if everyone got along fine and dainty. life will ultimately be as boring as the financial section of the newspaper (well, some might disagree with this.) but conflicts, according to my management text, is healthy to a certain extent. not only does it provide challenges, it also motivates. does this gives us more reasons to argue?

trying can be harmful.

2005-01-29T01:44:00.000+08:00

people always say that there is no harm trying something. however trying can be harmful. well, it does vary from instances, but it is particularly dangerous when you can predict say a 80% negative response. therefore, whilst it is good to listen to others at times, do trust and believe in yourself. personal judgements can be far more accurate than you can imagine. well, i tried.

words without action are ultimately meaningless.

2005-01-20T01:58:00.000+08:00

i really wonder what's the use of words. seriously, words can make a situation sound so good. however the meaning can only be brought out through actions. a cliche - action speaks louder than words. how true. therefore, sometimes it is really pointless to harp continously about how you are going to get things done. instead, focus that very same energy into making it happen. only then will you find the true meaning in words.

what we have become.

2005-01-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

when we were kids, we probably get so excited upon seeing another kid of our age. we exchange toys, and eagerly play with one another. however, as we grow older, we seem to lose that very special innocence we used to possess when we were young. the world to us now, seems to be a cold, unfriendly and unfamiliar place. interaction between each other is cut down to the minimum. we only talk to people whom we feel might benefit us or to the small circle of close friends and relatives we have. what have we become?